Under My Sea.

Today I’m thankful for:

YOU!

You supported me this weekend. That meant the world to me. You’re an amazing friend, and I love you more than I love Kenny Powers. Which is saying A LOT. : )

What happened to things being simple?

Or were they ever really that simple… hmmm

Happy birthday daddyo!

Um today was aight. So first period will behn chatted me off my non-existent nuts. He loves Emu’s. 2nd period scored the shit out of my AP enviro test. 3rd sub and more chatting. 4th ZZZZzzzzz. Lunch HR planning (SOOO EXCITED). Lunch actually sucked for me though. I didnt eat all of mine because I was in such a bad mood, and I was in a bad mood because I wasn’t hungry, and I wasn’t hungry because I’m listening to my body? Thats when I don’t know if a line has been crossed. 5th period, I love Ms.Glisson and her hate for emaan. hahahahah. 6th Rolley chair shuffle board? I think yes.

So I’m really really excited for today and tomorrow, but I’m also extremely nervous, I am hoping that I can just relax and eat what my friends are eating, but I’m sure there will be some restricting. :( I hate that. It’s ok though, I will make sure I eat enough I promise.

Last night I had night terrors for the first time, I had like these weird lucid dreams where I could remember being in the hospital and I would get woken up to drink like 2 ensures and I would wake up crying because I never want to go back to that. Never. I was so emaciated at the time I know I didn’t realize what was going on, but basically those where to get my heart rate going faster, because I was on the verge of cardiac arrest. I’ve been having a really rough time lately, I’m just good at hiding it. Sometimes I hate that.

On a lighter note my parents are at confrences right now and they just texted me saying that Im doing well so that makes me really happy :) all my effort is paying off. I can’t wait for my weekend with the huhr. Its going to make my life!